Some foreground

I see a shadow. 

The edges are fuzzy and not sharp. I looked again right now and it faded from view.

I breathed. It came back. 

When I make colour, I want it to be flat. I don’t like delineation. I want it to be even and subdued. Heather said I wanted it grey. I said I preferred gray to grey. Not somber. Modest.

This isn’t modest but mute.

Just now I saw a shadow. The contrast is low, there is a blanket on my knees and the door shouldn’t really be open. But finally, I saw a shadow; some foreground in the depth of field, some action of the tongue.